Unbreak my heart

 I call out your name, 
Yet you stay the same

I yell out a hello!
Wishing you would return a bellow

I look into your eyes,
Trying to find the recognition of my tries

You laugh, jump, shout and carry on
I stay behind, recollect myself to try again

Everyone around seems to know that all shall be fine
I wish I could remember that that all day and night

I wake up everyday, feeling blessed to have all that we do
I fail to sleep, not knowing if I did enough that I could do

I feel if I cry, I won't know when to stop
In this facade of maturity, I find myself lost

I don't wish for anyone to empathise or cry
This pain is mine, so are you until I die 

I feel its the misfortune of my deeds that you suffer
I fail to be the human being that I endeavour

Having doubted God and his blessings for so many years
I feel empty turning to him and begging to allay my fears

Do remember that I will love you always
No matter what you do or say

You're the mini me with whom I identify
You will be a better me for you know what to rectify